So...I passed my exam…Thank God! Now I can focus on actually completing the next four papers and I’ll be done for Part 1 CIFP…but I have only registered for two, it starts in September & Exams are in December, so no holidays for me until it’s over! But no problem for the short weekends trips though…heh
Another thing that’s been bugging me, I just wanna say I hate copy cats and even more when they copy something I’m not proud of doing and it just makes me the ‘bad influence’ when I wasn’t trying to be one! So please don’t follow the bad things I do and please don’t mention the bad things I do…well friends don’t from what I know of friendship. And yes, I’m no angel…so what?
On friendship, I am getting sick and tired of the one way street friendship that appears to be two way but is sometimes actually one way (if you get the drift)…it’s just that the emotional bank account is already at a deficit and I can’t take anymore neither can I give anymore. If it's always (fine most of the time) me doing the advising and motivating, what happens to me? Why don’t I get advice on the things that I do which are wrong...I’m not that much of a positive person myself, who helps me then? So I think I’m gonna take care of myself from here on and treat those equally the way they treat me. And I know, by me not being bothered and all, this is how friendship breaks, eventually… well it’s all coming to an end anyway…I will have to accept that I will be on my own eventually…everybody leaves (peyton’s style OTH) whether they move on to the other side, get married, get a bf or whatever…Fine I admit I’m being a drama queen, but that’s just how I feel at the moment…it’s sad.
I have also noticed something about myself, lately, when my mind & feelings are messed up i.e. angry, disappointed, stressed etc, I not only eat, but I shop…I shop on those things that I really want but wouldn’t normally buy kinda thing…but it’s ok I guess, since it makes me happy in that moment in time…I’m gonna be doing more shopping instead of eating…erm I think I gotta get rid of ALL the credit cards then! The dangerous me is being unleashed! Ahaks!
Another thing that’s been bugging me, I just wanna say I hate copy cats and even more when they copy something I’m not proud of doing and it just makes me the ‘bad influence’ when I wasn’t trying to be one! So please don’t follow the bad things I do and please don’t mention the bad things I do…well friends don’t from what I know of friendship. And yes, I’m no angel…so what?
On friendship, I am getting sick and tired of the one way street friendship that appears to be two way but is sometimes actually one way (if you get the drift)…it’s just that the emotional bank account is already at a deficit and I can’t take anymore neither can I give anymore. If it's always (fine most of the time) me doing the advising and motivating, what happens to me? Why don’t I get advice on the things that I do which are wrong...I’m not that much of a positive person myself, who helps me then? So I think I’m gonna take care of myself from here on and treat those equally the way they treat me. And I know, by me not being bothered and all, this is how friendship breaks, eventually… well it’s all coming to an end anyway…I will have to accept that I will be on my own eventually…everybody leaves (peyton’s style OTH) whether they move on to the other side, get married, get a bf or whatever…Fine I admit I’m being a drama queen, but that’s just how I feel at the moment…it’s sad.
I have also noticed something about myself, lately, when my mind & feelings are messed up i.e. angry, disappointed, stressed etc, I not only eat, but I shop…I shop on those things that I really want but wouldn’t normally buy kinda thing…but it’s ok I guess, since it makes me happy in that moment in time…I’m gonna be doing more shopping instead of eating…erm I think I gotta get rid of ALL the credit cards then! The dangerous me is being unleashed! Ahaks!
4 comments:
congrats!!! on passing the paper, on the emotion part, yup, i feel it too, just that lately aku dah malas nak contact orang yang dah kawin ni..let them find me, if have the energy, i'll initiate, if not , let it be...
thanks azita.. :)
but sometimes it's not just the married ones that does it...
ohh I have initiated one meet up with the married's..let's see what happens..hmmm (not hoping though...)
shazzzzzzzzzzzzz congratsssssssss!
aku kan aderrrrrrrr nak kasi ko positive energyyyyyyyyyy... aku cool perrrrrrrrrr
tq..ye lar ko cool...! tp ko tak lama dah kat sini..uwaaaaa
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