Back to where I was last year...the exact same feelings... Disappointments...regrets...another loss... I told myself not to expect anything but being human...I expected...I hoped...and now I'm facing the consequences...why is it hard for me to be happy? Facing the 5 stages of grieve is tiring...
I'm suppose to take risks in these matters but the downside tradeoff is not worth it! I'd rather just stayed as I was...this didn't have to happen...why me?
Words of wisdom from a friend...
"Jangan katakan kenapa aku yang kena? Jangan labelkan aku yang malang. Tetapi katakan, aku yang terpilih. Terpilih untuk putus cinta dengan manusia supaya ‘terpaksa’ bercinta dengan Allah. Memang begitulah rahmat Tuhan, kekadang DIA memutuskan untuk menyambungkan. Putus cinta dengan manusia, tersambung cinta dengan Allah. Inilah hikmah di sebalik kesusahan, kemiskinan, kegagalan, dan termasuklah putus dalam bercinta. Dalam ujian kesusahan selalunya manusia lebih mudah ingatkan Allah."
Adakah aku ini seorang yang tidak tahu bersyukur? I am grateful for it all...but I guess I wanted more...I still do...
RT @TheNoteboook: #ThingsWeAllHate being heartbroken. It changes your mood, your tone, and your ability to live your life. I wish it upon nobody.
It's happening again...
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Another of those Horoscopes...
"Imagine you are driving along - perhaps to work or an appointment where your timely arrival is required. You come along a road block, and you wind up getting stuck in traffic. Because of the delay you are quite late for your destination. And while you're waiting, you notice that a sign says the delay will continue for a full week. But instead of altering your path the next day, you take that route again. You are now doing something similarly ridiculous, Leo, to avoid breaking a routine or stepping outside of your comfort zone. Snap out of it."
I guess this time I need to fall hard on my head before I can snap out of it.
Thank you sister for sharing this...
When the horoscope speaks...
"Do you feel as though someone is limiting your potential, Leo? Is someone setting boundaries for you? Is someone oppressing you and preventing you from reaching the heights you aspire to? YES! Someone is holding you back. But this person isn't a stranger. This person is YOU. Yes, you're the one putting limits on what's possible. Ordinarily you're quite self-assured. You move through life with confidence and grace. But there's something you want now that's so important you're having doubts about your abilities. Furthermore, you may be worried that failing will make you look bad, and that could be causing you to be even more inhibited. Heed this reminder: You have what it takes!"
Thank you to my cousin Munira for reading this out (frm her BB) to me last saturday nite @ HRH beach :) Had an awesome weekend with you gurls!
hate me
Have been thinking lately on the effect I have on people...
some people really hate me! gosh...and to think that I really didn't do anything to them but be myself, which was acceptable at some point in their lives when we were once friends. Well, I know people change, but whats with the expectation that we change along with them? Why do I have to like the things they like & hate the things they hate? You don't have to like me, but hate? really? lol
It's been more than 10 years from the time we left school days, a lot of us were different back then, and we got along well, and when we left to pursue our studies and some did not keep in touch some did, what can we expect the other to be? not change at all, or to have changed so much or to be the same? I am pretty much the same, the way I am, most people say I am the same but some really changed to the point that they hate the way I am or am I just being misunderstood? Why question what I do? Seriously every single move I make you have to question? Well I'm not gonna even try anymore with this, all I did was try to close the gap by creating a conversation, but even that my intentions were questioned...hmm well I tried...
Well it just gets me thinking, what will happen to the friendships I have now 10 years down the road? Can't bear loosing friendships year in and year out, it's really sad. And the kind that when you were once so close, when you loose it, you just can't find your way back. I wonder why was the friendships so fragile? gotta analyze this, but I think the gist of it was lies, never lie to your friend coz when the truth sets out, it destroys the friendship.
On lies, you may think that you are covering your friend from something that you decided to lie about, but in the long run, we really don't need the hypocrite kinda relationships...it's a no go...
One question though...is it ok to test your friendship on a close friend? Like why would you choose to do that? Can't it just be in a form of question instead of tests that you have to self engineer or sit n discuss with someone else? I think we do this a lot not noticing it..maybe...I don't know...but I have seen real live cases and I think it's just immature. However I do test, after I asked the question n been lied to, so what else is there for me to do but to test it? Immature me! lol
Daddyk3rd to F&F
To my dear Friends & Family...
Life is Best for those who want to Live it,
Difficult for those who want to Analyze and Criticize it,
Our Attitude Defines Life...
Enjoy Your Life,
Laugh so Hard That even Sorrow Smiles,
Live Life so Well,
Fight so Hard That even Fate accepts its Defeat...
A beautiful life does not just happen.
It is built daily by prayer, humilty, sacrifice and love.
May that beautiful life be yours always.
May ALLAH Bless you.
~ Forwarded by Mama via Email
Latest one from GLEE
I feel u Rachel Berry!! *in a different circumstance though*
I have been there...I so felt this way many times over the year...but now...hmm...
Anyway...my current favorite now...from GLEE S02E16...lyrics is just good & the song is great!
Get It Right
What have I done? I wish I could
Away from this ship goin' under
Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight
Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/g/glee-cast-lyrics/get-it-right-lyrics.html ]
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight
So I throw up my fist
I will punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send out a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight
A friends advice to me "Relationship is like a glass. Sometimes is better to leave it broken rather than to hurt yourself trying to putting it back together." I guess it's true...
I am currently glued to 'Pretty Little Liars' Season 1... I like Ezra & Arya! I even like their names, not just the characters...ohh and last year, my treasure hunt team was named "GLEE" but this year its guess what? "Pretty Little Liars"! hahah...hopefully we make it to the top 5 again...lol *only if* ...ok done rambling at midnite..salamz!
Happy Together!
As we grow up...we forget the songs we used to sing..I always liked this song...
We are always happy around people, friends, why can't we share our friends? What has happened to the world that there's always a line between friends and even worse kroni's or groups? Never knew those when we were growing up..we could meet strangers and be friends so easily, play together and just click...not anymore these days...
"The more we get together,
Together, together,
Oh, the more we get together,
The happier we'll be.
For your friends are my friends,
And my friends are your friends.
Oh the more we get together,
The happier we'll be!"
::kiddies knows best::
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