~My Life Paintings~

Back to where I was last year...the exact same feelings... Disappointments...regrets...another loss... I told myself not to expect anything but being human...I expected...I hoped...and now I'm facing the consequences...why is it hard for me to be happy? Facing the 5 stages of grieve is tiring...

I'm suppose to take risks in these matters but the downside tradeoff is not worth it! I'd rather just stayed as I was...this didn't have to happen...why me?

Words of wisdom from a friend...
"Jangan katakan kenapa aku yang kena? Jangan labelkan aku yang malang. Tetapi katakan, aku yang terpilih. Terpilih untuk putus cinta dengan manusia supaya ‘terpaksa’ bercinta dengan Allah. Memang begitulah rahmat Tuhan, kekadang DIA memutuskan untuk menyambungkan. Putus cinta dengan manusia, tersambung cinta dengan Allah. Inilah hikmah di sebalik kesusahan, kemiskinan, kegagalan, dan termasuklah putus dalam bercinta. Dalam ujian kesusahan selalunya manusia lebih mudah ingatkan Allah."

Adakah aku ini seorang yang tidak tahu bersyukur? I am grateful for it all...but I guess I wanted more...I still do...

RT @TheNoteboook: #ThingsWeAllHate being heartbroken. It changes your mood, your tone, and your ability to live your life. I wish it upon nobody.

"Imagine you are driving along - perhaps to work or an appointment where your timely arrival is required. You come along a road block, and you wind up getting stuck in traffic. Because of the delay you are quite late for your destination. And while you're waiting, you notice that a sign says the delay will continue for a full week. But instead of altering your path the next day, you take that route again. You are now doing something similarly ridiculous, Leo, to avoid breaking a routine or stepping outside of your comfort zone. Snap out of it."

I guess this time I need to fall hard on my head before I can snap out of it.

Thank you sister for sharing this...